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So yeah, I misplaced the cable to transfer photos I have in my phone into my laptop. So no photos for the time being will be uploaded. I was soooo excited to post some photos of Oreo Cheese Cake and Apple Pie I made FROM THE SCRATCH!

But to my dismay, no cable - no photos.

Believe it or not, I'm still being treated like a lil' girl. I'm 23 in case you're wondering how old I am. TWENTY freaking THREE! Have they not realized yet that I've grown up? What do they expect?? Just stay in the house for the whole month till I get my posting? Have they forgotten that I've lived alone before in UK as well as in KL before? So why can't I go out and hang out with my friends? When it's weekends they can't even sit still cos they are bored too.

Control. Control. Control.

This is why I hate coming home.

Sadness.
It can makes you live on an empty stomach for days.
It can makes you do things you wouldn't think you were capable of.
It can makes your heart cripples into dusts.
It can makes your brain dysfunctions.

It is something that I have to learn to live with..

"It's not your fault pape pon and I'll never blame you cos I know we will be okay. You are great,really great. I love you.. You tak kurang pon. Please don't be sad cos we will always gonna have each other..."

Hellooo, how can I not love this guy? He's sweet and nice and caring and loving. He says all the right things at the right time. Okay, may be he said all that just to make me feel good about myself, but heck, who cares? That was exactly what I needed to hear at that time - a consolation from the one you love.

Then it got me thinking is every one else as lucky as me? Well, I believe not. Cos I've faced a few first-hand situations where my friend's boyfriend cheated on her with our friend, my friend's boyfriend almost hit her when they had a fight, my friend's boyfriend ended their relationship just because she refused to have sex with him and etc etc. Having to know all these makes me realize just how many guys who are untrustworthy, dishonest and scary are out there in this oh-what-a-small world.

Sure we have our flaws here and there, but we have never went looking for them. Why should we when we can try to accept each other for who we are so we don't have to pretend something that we are not. Aren't we suppose to love a person as he/she is together with his/her flaws? Isn't that how a relationship work? Or am I an old-fashioned kind of gal? I love my relationship with him thus I'm willing to do anything to keep it together.

I could not thank God enough for sending the right guy for me right outside my door. He is the best thing that ever happened to me in my entire life.

I love you sweetheart!

I'm so hungry cos I only ate beef porridge this morning. I'm so hungryyyyyyyy! Oh my goodness.. I'm craving for Krispy Kreme - original glazed and cookie something. Mdm Norzilah used to say this a lot when I was in my foundation years.

"Hungry people are angry people".

Only I'm not angry, but rather sad/gloomy/not in the mood.

FOOD. FOOOOOD. FOOOOOOOD!

I am at my Kak Long's house. Will overnight here for tonight. Just for tonight, cos tomorrow Kak Long and her family will be heading to Cameron Highlands. She asked me to tag along with her, but I think it's best for me not to go. Ooh anyways, Syerryl, Imani, Mika and Zarra are the her children. When I arrived around 2-ish, I was greeted with, "ACIKKKKKKKK!" from the kids. Hahaha. So cute. I'm thinking of taking them out tonight. Yeah. That would be nice.

Till then!

Adios!

First attempt on writing a blog on Vox website which I was persuaded by Supernab. So, yeah thanks to Supernab, I guess? Hahaha.